Thursday, February 12, 2009

...here is the rest of the story...

i sit here at the computer, as tears roll down my face…wondering how i can be so blessed to be reached out to by people who only know me by one still frame. your words of concern and compassion have touched me deeply. i didn’t want to come to this place today and share the chaos of life right now…one still frame was to be my place to just BE. i didn’t want it to be all heavy and a downer…but i started something yesterday and it would be rude of me to not fill you in on today.

as the day has progressed, the clouds of not knowing are clearing. the explosion of last night that lead the authorities to believe it was a meth explosion, was not. apparently a kid that was living there was angry at his girlfriend, who is also there…so he is going to kill himself. he sits down beside her and lights a molotov cocktail. this is the flash of light that one of our old neighbors witnesses…and what lead the boy to run out of the house with a burning area rug!! because the police picked him up off the side of the road with the suspicious burns-their first thought was meth explosion. a narcotics team got a search warrant last night and there was evidence at some point that meth had been made there but not yesterday.

we have further learned that there are people coming and going from the home all the time. at any given time there may have been as many as ten people there…per the fire department guys there are mattresses on any flat surface available. ( to let you know, because it wasn’t a meth explosion the babies were okay. i don’t know the status if they are safely away from those involved or not.) we don’t know the extent of the damage in the house, because, after all, being the homeowners we are not allow in the house without giving the renters 24 hour notice!! please, if you are considering renting property to anyone…DON’T!!!

we got our hands on an eviction notice from a lawyer friend, which states the renters have 24 hours after the papers are served to leave the property. this is a new “drug” form, that the district court had not seen yet!! it states specifically being evicted d/t the allowance of drugs on the property. i started at the sheriff's department-because this is a civil case the sheriff’s department can not serve the papers…so off i go to the district court office as they have names of civil processors. i go there, with my papers, which they have yet to know about and they can’t help me…other than to say serve the papers myself or call a service that can do it for us. if the renters don’t comply after the papers are served in that 24 hour time frame, then we go back to the court, file a complaint and they start proceedings. so I spend the afternoon riding around town with my brother, who is going to serve the papers to these people if we see them…YEAH RIGHT, like these people are still around. we find out the two people named on our lease, have been arrested several times since being in our house, there are several people in the house with outstanding warrants for their arrest…but because the warrants are for more than 50 miles away, no one will come and get them!!! the burned boy actually tells the cops this. they know full well that nothing can be done to them!!! unbelieveable…

we have had so much info invading our heads today from all angles…police, neighbors, the narcotics team, lawyers…and get this, EVEN the daughter of one of the renters called. she said that her mom was with her and they just heard about this whole thing and will they be able to get their things out of the house?????? “this would be such a hardship for her mom if she lost all her things” DO WE CARE????? first of all, her mother does know, because the neighbors saw her there last night, they saw the police put her in a police car!!! the daughter, who is supposedly in a town an hour away…knows about the eviction notice we put on the door. HOW STUPID ARE THESE PEOPLE!!!! she further asks, so if we go back into the house are we going to be arrested? hubby tells her no, because as the homeowners, it’s not our home to possess. but he stretches the truth and says they only have the 24 hours. if the house is considered abandoned, then we are able to take possession-to protect OUR interest in the house. so we fully expect tonight that the house will be a flurry of activity!!! our one neighbor has been video taping out her front window all the things that have been going on since this started yesterday...bless her heart!! the police are watching also...they want them out of our county too. they know all about these people, where they came from, all their activities...and us, as the homeowners...had no idea any of this was going on!! our neighbors of 11 years have been exposed to these people, because of us...the school children, just a block up the street have been exposed to these people, because of us!!!

i am exhausted,
i am in disbelief.
my husband and i went out on a limb
to help out some people who were having
some tough times…
and this is our repayment for that.

i will raise my voice and talk fast with my hands
i will cry
i will be angry
i will share our story with everyone so this does not happen to them
i will have my eyes wide open
i will defend our position as homeowners
i will help my family get our lives back in order

my “trusting” spirit has been shaken, ripped from me and stomped on.
i will not allow this to happen to my family again…
i will not be naïve


BUT…
i will forgive these people for what they have done…

3 comments:

joanne said...

as your place to just be, it seems to me it is your place to just be...

moments that happen are often not what we plan or expect...sharing them makes them ever so slightly less heavy to carry, even sometimes if that just means writing it all out and sending it into the universe to be cared for by strangers...

i am grateful for your update and glad to hear no one was killed...

and sorry to hear of the stressful ordeal you are going through and will be cleaning up in the coming months...

forgiveness...it is what heals our hearts and is something we give to ourselves, i think...to ensure that sacred space inside our heart stays open...i am also grateful for your heart that sees this too...

thank you for sharing...thank you for learning and in the process teaching...and thank you for forgiving...

xo

madrekarin said...

Robin- I am so sorry. What a nightmare for you and your family. I almost feel sorry for that family, but they have to be held accountable for their actions.
You are doing just what you should- forgiving. It is the one thing that will help you get through all of this. It isn't for the person you are forgiving, it's for you. But it's ok to be angry right now. That's just a part of the process of healing.
If I were closer, you know I would come help.

sarayutouched said...

Joanne and Karin~Thank you for leaving me a message ladies. I sooooo appreciate it!!! I am much better today. The gift of a new day brings more clarity and a calmness to think about issues better. They hopefully will be run out of town very soon!!

Robin