park street

today

today i was going in a whole other direction

in my thoughts

in what i was going to share...

then

our summons came in the mail

our court date is march 2

and i feel a sadness

today.

as i think back to this house

this material possession...

i am sad.

this house, for 11 years was this safe place

this place of laughter

this place of family

this place of goodness.

and i drive past this house...now...

and it stands there in this state of sadness...

where did my family go...

what happen to that happy family...

where are the children who played here in my rooms...

and ran in my yard playing catch and laid in my grass watching the stars.

i remember when they moved in the, it was just the two kids then...

then a year later the littlest one came along.

i watched them grow

i watched their highs, and i celebrated with them

and i watched their lows and i cried with them.

and now...

now i stand

i stand here as a place of

memories of hate,

arrests warrants,

violence...

i stand here as a house of shame...

my yard is full of trash...

my rooms are full of chaos, upheaval.

my rooms are quiet...

the bad family is gone.

i know my old family will fix me...

i know they will bring me a happy family again...

i know i will be alright.

i know my old family that loved me, will be alright.

i will be a safe place again. i promise.

just BE .